Memories... Dreams.....

it's has been quite sometimes since i saw her pretty face... the last times i saw her would be on her visit to the school this year... she's used to be my classmate but she left for the collage last year... I 've been wondering why am i kept dreaming about her almost about every night recently... i can't get rid of her memories from my mind... i kept dreaming about the way she looked at me... the way she talked at me... the way she smiled at me... the way she cried and lies her head on my shoulder... the way she asked me to protect her from some troublesome guys tried to bother her and i'm up to the rescue( i get beat up in the end... hahahaha)... the way she hugged me from behind... the way she thanked me for buying her a drinks.... but next day she repaid me back to me... i still kept the money she gave it to me until one day i'm totally broke and i used the money to buy cigarettes=(... i never thought she would be the one... not in a thousand years... she already got a boyfriend... she unavailable by the way... i'm not the type of guy who like to seduce other guys girlfriend even though if i get her fair and square ... the memories makes me realize one thing about my true feeling... after a while i noticed something different... she's being too close with me... i don't want that to happen... as the result i changed... and she kinda hate me actually bcoz of my attitude toward her... we never talked ever since that day and until now... i'm always think of others before me and i think makes a huge mistake by letting her go... deeply regretted till now..