Memories... Dreams.....

it's has been quite sometimes since i saw her pretty face... the last times i saw her would be on her visit to the school this year... she's used to be my classmate but she left for the collage last year... I 've been wondering why am i kept dreaming about her almost about every night recently... i can't get rid of her memories from my mind... i kept dreaming about the way she looked at me... the way she talked at me... the way she smiled at me... the way she cried and lies her head on my shoulder... the way she asked me to protect her from some troublesome guys tried to bother her and i'm up to the rescue( i get beat up in the end... hahahaha)... the way she hugged me from behind... the way she thanked me for buying her a drinks.... but next day she repaid me back to me... i still kept the money she gave it to me until one day i'm totally broke and i used the money to buy cigarettes=(... i never thought she would be the one... not in a thousand years... she already got a boyfriend... she unavailable by the way... i'm not the type of guy who like to seduce other guys girlfriend even though if i get her fair and square ... the memories makes me realize one thing about my true feeling... after a while i noticed something different... she's being too close with me... i don't want that to happen... as the result i changed... and she kinda hate me actually bcoz of my attitude toward her... we never talked ever since that day and until now... i'm always think of others before me and i think makes a huge mistake by letting her go... deeply regretted till now..

First Time...

I never met a girl like you before...
I never cried because of a girl before...
I never danced with a girl before...
I never went out with a girl before...
I never watched a movie with a girl before...
I never went for a date before...
I never hug the girl I love before...
That's my last word to you...
Because you are my first time...

For now...

You are very special girl
I wish we can be more than just a friend
Maybe we are not destined to be together for now
Maybe in future who's know
Because you are very special to me...

Cherish Memories...

If I miss you
I'll be playing you a song
If I miss your smile
I'll be seeing you in my dream
But...
If you are sad...
It will tear my heart apart
But...
If you cry...
I'll be there to wipes all your tears
That's my words for you

I...

Memories....

You are my Saber

I love her...
I want her to be happier than anyone else,
and...
I want to continue being with her...
But...
If i truly love her...
Then that is wrong...
For it is the Saber who fought through even with her injuries...
That I love...
To step on her honor...
Is something I must not do...
Saber...

Where ever you are....

I feel you so close...
Yet you are beyond my reach...
Even then,
Even if I can't reach you...
Something stay in my heart...
We looked up at the same thing at the same time...
If I remember that...
Even when we are far apart...
I can believe we are together...
I'll continue running for now...
If i aim far...
Then sometime...
I will reach what I aim for...

Fate Stay Night 2

Fate Stay Night

Sometime in the future,
my memory will fade...
Her voice...
and her bearing....
maybe i'll forget both...
even then,
I will always remember that I loved this girl